20 | free spirit | writer
i like to think of myself as jack kerouac reincarnated without the alcoholism
— Love Reincarnated
CAN YOU GUYS REBLOG THAT LAST POST AND TAG HER IN IT
there is nothing i want more in the world than to sit down and have a conversation with you.
i have overwhelming respect and adoration for you that grows with every new song, award show, or silly little picture you post on instagram of your cats. i’ve never identified with someone i never met as strongly as i have with you, and here’s why —
whatever hearts are made out of, i believe ours are made of the same thing. we feel things so deeply, so passionately, and so much harder than others, and it ultimately renders us wounded. defeated, almost. guarded — yet, somehow, totally “arms wide open” for those who hurt us in the first place. why? because we see the good in people, and once it’s in our sights, we latch onto it in hopes that this person - whether it be a friend or a lover - will always remain that gentle, compassionate, kind soul that you once knew. even when they hurt us, even when they devastate us, even when they leave us, we don’t know how to turn them away. nothing we have ever “let go” of have been left without scratch marks.
the way you express your love through your music shows me that you love the same way i love — all or nothing. there is no grey area; when you give your heart to someone, you give them all you’ve got, time after time, under the pretense that they’re doing the same. you find yourself feeling emotionally annihilated because you don’t know why your heart is so foolish — or, better yet, why *he* is so foolish for not recognizing the depth of your sincerity.
that being said, your music has helped me through some of the darkest times in my life. victimized by am emotional abuser for two years, hearing your songs and feeling your pain through your lyrics was honestly the only glimmer of sanity i had at that point — because i was able to understand that i’m not the only person who feels the things i do, the way that i feel them. you so perfectly illustrate the feelings i cannot say for myself, and what’s more is you help me gain the strength TO say them. thank you for that. thank you for being there when no one else was. thank you for helping me escape him.
aside from romance, i connect with you insomuch that i see how you are publicly treated, and a lot of the criticism you unjustly receive definitely reflects how i’ve been treated by others. while i’m not in the public eye and have the idiot media watching my every move, i have in fact been bullied on a smaller scale, and i know how hard it is — that’s why, seeing you endure all the bullshit thrown your way with a smile on your beautiful face is so inspiring to me. i can’t imagine how awful it may feel to have the world calling you out on being yourself because *they* don’t think it’s good enough, but you simply handle it with such grace that it astounds me. it’s people like you and i — the different ones, the unique ones, the ones with SOUL, who are the most ridiculed, and i understand that, and i accept that, and i wouldn’t change who i am to meet their standards of mediocrity, but that doesn’t mean it’s not challenging at times to be “different.” you have taught me to embrace that special character within myself, and to not let anyone take away my spotlight, no matter what lengths they’ll go to in order to see me fail.
i admire you so much, i have for years, and it’s thanks to your influence that i decided to take my own dream, my own emotion, my own passion, and dive into my OWN writing. hopefully someday i can use my own trauma as a success story that will inspire millions the way you inspire me every day.
i love you, thank you for all you do.
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so “operation write a long sappy post and tag the fuck out of it and use my army of followers to get taylor to notice it” should be a thing or nawwww????
ok few things
i didn’t take him back??? we’re just in each others lives again, the way it should be, that’s it.
even if i DID take him back, it would be, like, worlds different, because he and i have been off and on for five years and share hella history. they got together because he needed someone, which is different than getting together because you MISSED someone (which *would* be our case) — and yeah, i thought it was weak that it took her less than a day to forgive him for cheating on her with ME, of all people for him TO cheat with. this thing between him and i has been six months of forgiveness in the making, not six hours.
he’s not a shit person, he’s done shitty things to me, to her, and worst of all — to himself, but he’s making a sincere effort to right his wrongs and that starts with doing what he knows he should have done in the first place: taking time for himself, to learn himself and to grow within himself like i’ve been doing. that’s all i’ve wanted for him.
lastly, i DO love myself. i respect myself. i am confident in myself. i am happy with myself. never try to take that away from me with stupid implications.
are u a detective
come off anon and i’ll *think* about telling you
you know what would be easier than going through that loooooong process of creepin my blog
following me back
THATS WHAT I’M SAYIN’!!!!!!
only you know tryna achieve marshall/lilly status because i’d rather not continue this game of cat and mouse for years ;-)